The Daytimes Are Bad, The Nightimes Worse.

I'm having a hard time picking a favourite album for the next challenge post hence the long gap after being semi consistent in my writing which is incredibly frustrating since there have been many things I wanted to write about but no longer can since they are no longer relevant or applicable. One of them was going to be about how life is great and such but that topic has to be abandoned seeing as how so far all 9 days of 2013 have ranged from bad to terrible for various reasons that frankly nobody else needs to know. I am also finding it hard to find a song/title for this post since I keep over thinking everything and finding meanings that don't exist. Thankfully shuffle exists and cannot be influenced by outside factors even though there are times it seems the purposefully choose the songs that are the worst for any given situation.

Don't bother looking for some hidden meaning that doesn't exist. Go read a book or something

Remember I'm not picking these. It's the work of forces unknown

This may be my favourite album of 2012 but not even close to favourite overall

I have nothing to add here.

I hope in the next few days I can decide what my favourite album is and maybe feel one emotion at a time instead of everything and nothing at once. I also hope 2013 gets better because if it gets worse then I have truly done something wrong in a past life. Until then Goodnight and Goodluck

Oh My Heart Is Sinking, Same Old Useless Worn Out Thinking

My veins suck. That is probably the strangest way to start a post but it all makes sense. The last time I donated blood was may of 2009. I tried a few other times but there were always scheduling issues or I would plain old forget. Today though I remembered my appointment and I was there on time. My iron level was O.K. and my temperature and blood pressure were just fine. Unfortunately I forgot to drink water. For most people this would be a minor issue and the only drawback would be that it would take a few extra minutes. However as most people know be it a good thing or a bad thing I am not most people. Because I didn't drink any water my horrible deep veins were just shy this side of impossible for the poor nurses to find and when they finally found one on my right side it decided to spit a little bit of blood out. Just enough to fill the line but not enough to touch the bag and it also hurt more than usual so I now have a lovely little bruise on my right arm. At this point I had two options. Option A give up and go away or B. accomplish what I set out to do and fill a bag full of my precious red fluids. I chose B and I moved my butt over to a new chair and and got my left arm all taped up and pumped up so that it turned purple and fell asleep. The nurse stuck the needle in this time and out came... Nothing. For my efforts I got two little holes in my arm two juice boxes and a few timbits. However I learned a valuable lesson. Drink a gratuitous amount of water and maybe I will be able to get rid of my blood.

So with that out of the way I will move on to something I debated talking about last week but decided not to because I didn't feel overly open and sharing. Today I have changed my mind mainly because the idea has managed to last a week and remain relevant. I continually compare myself to other people. I do this so that I can gauge how  successful or normal I am in different areas. For relationships I compare myself to two people. One is my best female friend and the other is my one friend who still lives in P.A. Traditionally I have been on the same level as one or both of them or slightly ahead. However that is no longer the case and I am not sure how I feel about this. I am happy for both of them but I do not like being last relationship wise and to make things even more fun I can't even switch who my barometer is since all of my close friends are all in more or less successful relationships. In fact the only single people I know are people I only talk to once every few months tops. It's especially frustrating since at the moment I don't even have any options or even pipe dreams. Basically all I can do is wait for one of my friends to become single but I don't want that since they are my friends and wanting them to be single would make me a unjustifiable horrible person. In the meantime I will just have to make some new friends and hope the will be people I can realistically compare myself to.

I will make a post about Lent on Wednesday. I am saying this now so that I am forced to do it and if I don't I hope somebody guilts me into doing it