Today was a good day. Jacko left so I will no longer have to deal with him and his general creepiness. Actually that is really the only thing that happened today besides the fact that I was in bed all day watching T.V. I'm not sure why but most of my favorite T.V. show focus on people doing illegal things. Shows like The Wire, Breaking Bad, Dexter, Sons of Anarchy etc. I'm not sure what it is but I find that I can into these shows much easier than I can conventional dramas and comedies. Maybe deep down inside I want to do bad things or maybe I enjoy these shows because of the people trying to thwart the criminals or maybe it's the fact that in almost all these shows the criminals have good intentions. Even in The Wire where the main criminal organization doesn't have any good intentions you have characters like Omar who is a Robin Hood-esque character or in the second season you have the dock union that may be doing bad stuff but it does it to ultimately help everyone in the union keep their jobs. However I now feel rather guilty since I decided to Torrent The Wire and Sons of Anarchy since I never see them on T.V. and I couldn't afford to by each season of each series so now I am trying to figure out a way to financially show my support for these incredible T.V. series. The fact that I have yet to meet anyone else who has watched The Wire is very disappointing since I believe it may be the single greatest program to ever appear on Television. If you do not believe this to be the case then watch the first season or at the very least watch this clip
also I want to meet someone who has seen the series to have an Omar vs Brother Mouzone debate with
I recently talked about the likelihood of a federal election here and of course for those of you who remember it or just read you now know that I was wrong. Way wrong. So now that we are in election season I have decided to blog about the election however I won't be doing that here instead I have made a second blog to talk about all the fun political stuff. I have decided not to link to it here or announce it's title but it's also not hidden so it should be easy enough to find if you feel like reading it and if you decide to leave it be it's no skin off my nose.
It's kind of ridiculous that I didn't post anything for a whole week but it's been a long week for some reason. I am back to working evenings which means that the time I usually write stuff 6-Midnight I am now at work which messes things up. Once I am off work I come home and watch late night T.V. and anything I decided to record from when I was at work then around 2 I attempt to go to bed and maybe if I am lucky by 4:30 I am asleep. I am notoriously lazy and unmotivated so I generally don't wake up until at least Noon if not later then I have some lunch and do random house stuff like laundry and dishes and stuff until about 2. I will admit from around 2-3:30 there is a window of nothing where I could write stuff such as this but I generally spend it doing as little as possible. Then at 3:30 I go and either make or buy something to eat for supper later by 4 I am at work doing prep until 6. I apologize for just writing what is literally the most boring thing ever that is one of the downsides to just writing what happens to pop into your head. If you want to read something interesting and actually useful I would suggest checking out Just Putting It Out There it's a new blog a friend of mine has started and it has some neat stuff in it.
If anyone out there has a tip or trick for falling asleep please let me in on it I am in desperate need of a way to fall asleep. For the last few weeks it doesn't matter how tired I am I just cannot seem to be able to sleep. I toss and turn for hours and eventually I nod off. The good thing is that once I am asleep I am down for the count for a solid 5 hours or longer and even if I wake up I have no trouble falling back asleep but that isn't overly helpful when you know you have to work 6 A.M. and you go to bed at Midnight and end up tossing and turning until 4:30 and end up only getting 30 minutes of sleep. It's maddening it's to the point now where it doesn't matter how ridiculous it sounds I will try it. I even tried using Nyquill but that did absolutely anything. If this keeps up much longer I will just resort alcoholism and drink myself to sleep. Actually I won't due to the fact that I wouldn't be able to afford it. Anyways if you have the secret to sleep let me know I am tired of not getting any sleep (Pun totally intended) I'll try not to go a whole week without posting anything this time!
For the second time so far I don`t want to write anything but someone asked me too so I feel obligated don`t ask me why. I try not to be bitter but today sucks for some reason sucks. It just seems like everything is trying to straight up get me down. It`s probably karmic retribution for small acts of torture. Seriously earlier I watched Community the one thing that always makes me laugh and fills my heart with joy. Alas for the first time ever this was not the case. I have tried everything possible and just to make things worse the one thing that will make me feel better isn't possible. I know that if I could get some music going I would be back on a trail to being up but as I went to play some Hip my speakers died. So I am stuck being miserable and the stupid part is I shouldn't be since things aren't that bad which makes me guilty since it could be worse which brings me down even more. It's a vicious circle! O.K. so this while writing process is strangely therapeutic.
One of the problems I have is that I always compare myself to others which in itself isn't bad but now I am by the youngest person at work by a few years and I compare myself to everyone and ask myself why I am not doing as well as them and it frustrates me. Thankfully I eventually realize it's mostly because they have a 3-5 years head start on me. I really hope the next post is about how awesome everything is and not how I can't get time off from SYP and that people don't answer e-mails and other things. By the way don't give up on this sad excuse for a blog I feel like a T.V. writer in the sense that I have some awesome posts and ideas on the way but I am spacing them with mindless drivel about my life. If nothing else check back in on Valentines Day it will be a gooder and if you have any advice on how I can quit sucking at life let me know!
