Let's just cut to the chase. Post 18: "A song that you wish you heard on the radio"
I want to learn the saxophone for the sole reason of playing this solo
It's a great song, it's slow, somber, but not overly sad. I'm sure I could here it if there was a dedicated classic rock station. Of course here in Yorkton there isn't one. CCR is one of the few groups that I can honestly say doesn't have a bad song. Are all of their songs great? Definitely not but there isn't a rotten apple in the barrel, However in music like apples if you don't like the taste of one you won't like the taste of any. There are two other musical groups who have the same distinction in quality, The Band, and Foo Fighters. This is also on the short list of songs I would want played at my funeral, One of the things I do when I want to kill time or focus on something unimportant and un-troubling is make playlists for every event. I have shared my thoughts on funerals here. I actually polished the second portion of that up into something much better for a SYP article I may replace the original or make a new post with the update.
I find more in more in my life I explain my actions and describe my personality, by talking about the various people in my life as I grew up. I come from a very large family of mostly healthy people so I have all kinds of influences to draw from but as I grow I find there are two people I am most like. One is obvious and makes a lot of sense which is my Father. For a small glimpse into the kind of person he is you can check out his Twitter. From being around him my whole life and being his son I have picked up a lot of his mannerisms, sensibilities, and ethics among other things. The one thing most people notice and comment on when first meeting the other after knowing one of us for awhile is how we basically have the same odd sense of humour that I really can't objectively describe. The other man I find in myself is my late maternal grandfather Arhibald "Archie" Locke. We were never particularly close but from sheer luck, some good some bad, and genetics, I have picked up quirks that are seemingly unexplainable and his personality.This is basically due to my picking up some of his undiagnosed minor mental disorders that are absent on my dads side of the family but seem to be lurking just under the surface on my mothers. However in my case these things didn't stay under the surface and are actually noticeable enough to be diagnosed. At one time I hated it and what it made me, but as I grow I am becoming at peace with it and can accept that it is an integral part of who I am for better or for worse. They are both a little quieter and a lot calmer than I am but I'm still a work in progress and I hope to one day be a bit more like both of them.
Time is confusing. When I say that I don't mean the concept of time and the linear aspects of it I mean how time is perceived and how it relates to everything. As of yesterday I have officially been out of High school for two years now but it still feels like I was walking the halls and sitting in class a few days ago. On the other hand in two days I will have been living in Yorkton for a year and it feels like I have been here an eternity. I think Einstein explained why this is however I never learned this in my formal education so I can neither confirm nor deny this.
So in the two years I have been out of the public education what has changed about me? There are some obvious things such as the fact I'm at least 20 pounds heavier, my hair is shorter, and I now receive paychecks instead of report cards. Those in themselves are not big changes since at least one of those changes has happened to every graduate in the history of education. There are also some other changes that aren't as easy to see but are definitely more important. I can now admit that I am wrong. The inability to admit that I was wrong or that I possibly had made a major mistake led to me nearly failing at least one class and alienating numerous people. Even though I am still socially inept I can at least talk to people without breaking into a cold sweat, and most importantly, even if you don't agree with what they say or if you think they are 100% wrong listen to your boss and do what they say. Usually they turn out to be right and even if they aren't the only way you can show them that they are wrong is to do things their way and let the chips fall where they will. It's not earth shattering stuff but it's stuff I never learned in school.
There is a second reason I'm focusing on graduation today. On Thursday my younger sister will graduate and she will officially be better than me. This isn't an opinion it's a fact. Just focusing solely on education I graduated just outside The Honor Role thanks to Math B30 and after grad I went and received my diploma in broadcasting after a 5 month stint at a broadcasting college in Saskatoon. In a few days my sister will stand behind a podium and deliver the valedictorians speech and then go to U of A for a few years to get a degree in pharmacy and most likely make more money than me for the rest of my life. Despite the fact that I will play second fiddle from this point on I wish her nothing but success seeing as how the more successful she is the better the house I will be visiting when I take my vacations in future years.
I have decided I will write about leaf next time when the whole saga is over. Also I won't rant about Jack-O I will instead describe how I entertain myself now. It's called small acts of torture and I stole the idea from a Stuart McLean story. It works like this everyday I do things that by themselves are no big deal or would go unnoticed however in conjunction with everything else or by doing them everyday they become things that drive you insane. One example would be baking once a week and always making something the person your torturing hates. If they confront you about your evil it is easy to turn the tables. One that I enjoy is changing the setting on Jack-O's laptop whenever he isn't around and leaves it out in the open specifically his internet settings. Every time this happens he gets frustrated and blames the router or the stupid computer for not letting him go online. Another fun one is shutting off the lights when they are still in the room. You don't do it every time just once every day or two. I am able to think of new ones everyday some are mostly harmless and usable in this situation others are quite malicious and not applicable.
I am undoubtedly paranoid. If you ever want to scare the crap out of me send me a text or leave a message saying, call me its urgent. My boss likes to send me texts at 6 A.M. saying are you coming in today I need to talk to you it's important. Every time I get that message I think I am about to be fired even if I haven't done anything wrong I blow everything out of proportion. The other day my dad text-ed me saying call me when your free it's important. I thought somebody had died it turned out he wanted to know if I had something he had asked me to do the day before (which I had). I would be so much happier if there was some way of including a rating at the end on how dire the conversation will be. From now on when I send a call me message I will include a number at the end of the message between 1 and 10. 1 being the burger I just ate was really delicious and 10 being your whole family fell off a cliff and died. So next time I leave a message that says call me when you get a minute 3 you will know not to freak out.
