Why Don't We Just Give Up And Go Away?

Time is confusing. When I say that I don't mean the concept of time and the linear aspects of it I mean how time is perceived and how it relates to everything. As of yesterday I have officially been out of High school for two years now but it still feels like I was walking the halls and sitting in class a few days ago. On the other hand in two days I will have been living in Yorkton for a year and it feels like I have been here an eternity. I think Einstein explained why this is however I never learned this in my formal education so I can neither confirm nor deny this.

So in the two years I have been out of the public education what has changed about me? There are some obvious things such as the fact I'm at least 20 pounds heavier, my hair is shorter, and I now receive paychecks instead of report cards. Those in themselves are not big changes since at least one of those changes has happened to every graduate in the history of education. There are also some other changes that aren't as easy to see but are definitely more important. I can now admit that I am wrong. The inability to admit that I was wrong or that I possibly had made a major mistake led to me nearly failing at least one class and alienating numerous people. Even though I am still socially inept I can at least talk to people without breaking into a cold sweat, and most importantly, even if you don't agree with what they say or if you think they are 100% wrong  listen to your boss and do what they say. Usually they turn out to be right and even if they aren't the only way you can show them that they are wrong is to do things their way and let the chips fall where they will. It's not earth shattering stuff but it's stuff I never learned in school.  

There is a second reason I'm focusing on graduation today. On Thursday my younger sister will graduate and she will officially be better than me. This isn't an opinion it's a fact. Just focusing solely on education I graduated just outside The Honor Role thanks to Math B30 and after grad I went and received my diploma in broadcasting after a 5 month stint at a broadcasting college in Saskatoon. In a few days my sister will stand behind a podium and deliver the valedictorians speech and then go to U of A for a few years to get a degree in pharmacy and most likely make more money than me for the rest of my life. Despite the fact that I will play second fiddle from this point on I wish her nothing but success seeing as how the more successful she is the better the house I will be visiting when I take my vacations in future years.

I'm Surprised That You've Never Been Told Before, That You're Lovely, And You're Perfect, And That Somebody Wants You

Who are you?

Sounds like a simple question doesn't it? If I asked myself that question the answer would be I'm David Johnson a 20 year old radio DJ from Christopher Lake who currently lives in Yorkton. Here's the thing that answer isn't overly helpful. Yes it's true but it doesn't tell anyone who you really are.

What would happen if other people were asked who you are?

Now things get interesting. You could ask three people this question: A parent, a close friend, and a coworker/friend you aren't that close with and you would get a different answer. A regular topic of conversation with one group of my friends is who you really are since everyone acts and thinks differently depending on who they are with. It's almost as if there are 5 different versions of you walking around if not more! And on top of all these there is also the person you want to be. Now here is the question which one of these versions is the real you?

A week or so ago I decided to walk around for awhile after work since it was a nice night and for whatever reason my favorite time to wander is the middle of the night. It's quite relaxing there aren't many people or cars around so you can go wherever you please and clear your head or think about whatever drifts into your mind. While taking this walk I got on the topic of who I really am and realized that I wasn't happy with all the versions of me. After (over)analyzing various comments and situations from the past year or so I realized that I can come off as bad person. For whatever reason at some point in the past I decided to try and be more serious which lead to me being a bit of a jerk and a bitter person. This is not who some people see me as and this is not the version I want to be,

I got thinking about who I really am and realized that I am not a bitter person. Yes I am skeptical and cynical at times but at my core I am an optimist who has one goal in life. This goal is the reason I originally got into radio and is more or less the reason I do most of the things I do. My goal is simple, my goal is to make people happy plain and simple by any means possible. It's the reason why I have always enjoyed doing charity work and community service and don't mind being the but end of the joke or making a fool out of myself for the sake of making someone laugh.

Now for the fun part what does this mean? Quite frankly I don't at this point in time and I probably won't know for awhile. What I do know is that I am going to stop trying to be somebody else and some people are going to see some changes over the next while. Of course there will also be people who see no change whatsoever since they managed to see a version of me that I am happy with.

So if your looking for a good way to kill a lot of time ask yourself, who are you? And don't forget to tell the truth.

It Would Be Better For Us If You Don't Understand

For whatever reason very few people looked at my last post. Maybe 5 people tops which isn't overly surprising, in hindsight a post that is all links and no thoughts makes for a poor read. Here's hoping this one is better (Hint: it is!)

I spend way to much time online. I'm not sure why since I rarely do things that are important or productive online but from time to time I find things that are absolutely profound. Recently I have found two things that accurately describe to a point that is almost eery. Everyday I make sure I read the three daily articles on Cracked since they are always hilarious and/or informative. Two Fridays ago Daniel O' Brien wrote an article that basically covered how I live my day to day life. For those of you who don't know I am horribly horribly socially awkward and if you aren't but are curious to know how people like myself operate read here. Unfortunately blogger doesn't show anything from the other end of the link but such is life.

So as I said there are two things that describe me and how I live me life. The second thing is an internet meme that I didn't pay much attention to when I first saw it except that I laughed at it a bit. However the more often I saw it the more I began to realize that great jumping jehosophat that it is me. The meme I am talking about is of course the Socially Awkward Penguin. For those of you unfamiliar with SAP it looks like this

I do this everyday.

 and this

Those are just samplings of of the things me and the SAP both do. There are hundreds more SAP pictures  and all of them are just as accurate. So the next time you think to yourself "What is wrong with that fellow something isn't quite right with that boy" Refer to the previously mentioned works and you will realize that I am even more "wrong" than originally thought.