I am painfully pitifully out of shape, I am almost a gelatinous mass, I could be one of the people living in space in WALL-E. This is not an opinion or something up for debate, I am very much over weight and and it's my own damn fault. This sounds bad and it is but it has to be said in these terms otherwise I will just allow myself to become even worse. Now there is some good news, tonight I took a small step to becoming a not disgusting human being. I found a buddy travelled around Yorkton and found myself a full set of hockey gear. Buying the gear isn't enough though so I also went and played rec hockey tonight and you know what? I was awful, I forgot that most people can skate in more than direction and know how to stop, however for this being the first time I had been on skates in over 5 years and only the third time I had used a hockey stick while on skates it wasn't too bad and had I have been an in shape person it could have even been upgraded to O.K. This was not the case though and I was damn near dying before the opening face off, I soldiered on though and made it to the final whistle with a lot of time spent on the bench compared to my team mates but there was a noticeable improvement in my abilities and I even got my stick on the puck a few times. I'm currently a little sore and very tired and it feels great, I had actually forgotten how good it feels be physically tired at the end of the day. I can't have been the worst person to lace up the skates because I got an invite out to play more rec hockey and I'm most likely going to take those offers up because there's no way more ice time will do me any harm.
This hasn't been a new revelation for me I have known for some time what I am and what I need to do but I finally have a catalyst to make this happen. You see after going almost 4 years without going on a single date there is a member of the opposite sex who is interested in me. There interested in what I am now flaws and all but this person is drop dead gorgeous and frankly it wouldn't be fair to stick them with the dead weight I currently am. This won't be an overnight thing and I have enough positive qualities to carry me through until I am something I wouldn't mind seeing in the mirror. Right now this looks like something pretty hard to screw up, but I do have knack for messing up sure things and even if I do I'll be a better off than I am now. And yes, I do realize I somehow managed to post two blogs in one week.
I have never claimed to be a man who could focus on one thing for very long, this why I am still working on a 30 project over a year and a half later. Had I been diligent I would have been done in January of this year with one post a week, August with two posts a month and with just a single post a month I will be done November of next year. Should this be done by then I will be surprised but one never knows, sometimes I will focus and put all my energy into something unimportant for a few months at a time which is what happened when I started this blog way back when. Anyways let us celebrate the half way point with...
I would pay good money to have facial hair like that.
Post 15 "A Song That Describes You" That's about as accurate as any song can get, the title hits the nail on the head and lyrics such as "I can't say I'm proud of all of the things I have done, but I can say I've never intentionally hurt anyone" are as true a statement I can make. I wouldn't quite go as far to say it's my motto but sometimes life is best lived outside the lines.
It also helps that this is a great tune by a country outlaw legend. I'm slightly dissapointed I couldn't find a studio version of the song, the one plus is that the old timers sound almost identical live as they did on pressed vinyl. In the words of my father "The fact that Willie is still alive and Waylon isn't is proof there is no God" I wouldn't go quite that far, but it is unfortunate that most people only know Waylon for the Dukes of Hazzard Theme, one of my favourite shows to watch when I was in elementary school along with The A-Team which I am watching as I write this. Back then I watched both shows on Showcase Action and tonight I get to watch a thousand bullets get fired and 20 cars flip without anyone getting injured thanks to Netflix.
Thinking about the future is one of my least favourite things to do but I seem to end up doing it all the time. Usually when I should be doing more productive things like sleeping or focusing on my job. I would probably be on much better terms with the future if I had more control over it, or if it happened to be just a little bit more clear.
As someone who can't competently plan what will happen tomorrow let alone years down the line the future fills me with a sense of unease. There's also the fact that I am far too young to be concerning myself with such things but here I am none the less. If I were to fathom a guess as to why my future frightens me it would be because both my near and far past are filled with mistakes and regrets and after crunching the numbers it appears what is to come will follow the same trend of that which already is. There's also the fact that I am resistant to all change even that which would make my life better and all the future contains is an endless amount of change.
As Joe Strummer once said "The future is unwritten" sadly my writing is illegible.
I'm a pretty straight forward guy when it comes to most things. I make no claims of being a enigma wrapped in a mystery, I have voiced my opinion on pretty much every thing I have encounter and I've always held the belief that if your comfortable asking the question then I should be comfortable answering it. That being said there are anomalies in everything myself included my musical taste which brings me to Post 14 "A song that no one would expect you to love". I don't necessarily "love" the song that I chose but in terms of songs I shouldn't find any enjoyment at all in listening to, this is the one I like the most.
I'm not really that attractive don't worry I am already aware.
It's hard to attach anything of significance to a post with this song, so I have nothing more to add to this one other than it gets the floor packed at weddings and despite the poor lyrical quality it's catchy as a cold in the wintertime.
